Getting Down

"There must be SOMETHING good about Uni, surely?"
"...No."

I know I haven't posted in a long while, and I guess I should use this more as an outlet than anything now, since Journalism's lost it's allure to me, as has the course itself. 4th week and it's still introductory slideshows, this is starting to get old...

Right now I want to be home, somewhere safe so I can recoup my loses and figure out how to regroup and make another attempt at this portion of my life. Just being here though...doesn't fill me with confidence. Things are far from getting better.

Just the same as before, the only things I have to look forward to are coming home, and the occasional meetings with my Uncle.

And before I'm told I'm still doing nothing, I tried to be more social...now I'm stuck in a "friendship group" where the guys are crowding me, always asking me about my opinion of girls in magazines asking if I'd do her or if she's hot, and they still have no common interests with me, just now I feel scared to go to Uni...result.

Now I'm scared to even go out of my little room, though my food's stopped disappearing from the fridge...but, right now...I just want to be home. Christmas seems a long way away...too far away. I'm struggling to think if I can survive two weeks, let alone just under 2 months...I think it's best I don't think about that.

And my interview with my tutor seems to be non existant...I still haven't been emailed back about it, 5 days later, and she seemed to be purposefully avoiding me in class today. Right now I just want to be away from this and everything. I'm not saying I think it'll all be stress-free...I'm just saying this is most definately not what I want to be doing. I'm completely sure of that now...

-Ross