Staring at the rugged skyline, which anywhere but England could resemble mountains, but here it was just masses of clouds, I realised something...I'm 18, this is my life, to live how I want to...and I've realised that I really don't like University life.
You're probably thinking: "Ross you've just come back to Uni after a weekend at home, of course you're going to be homesick." But it's more than that...just the thought of three more years of school just...I can't think how I'd handle it. I can't even remember my classes three years ago...I barely remember my first year of Sixth Form. And considering I don't like this place all that much...three years is more than I could feasibly imagine staying here...
I've also realised I don't really want to become a journalist...not right now anyway. The appeal has just died for me. What I really want to do is...get a job. I want to get out into the real world, being here isn't the real world it's just like being at a boarding school. The real world isn't communal showers and kitchens, even the worst flats have kitchens and their own shower.
Long story short, as many have you have probably already guessed is...I want to drop out. I want to get a job, and I mean really want to get a job. As much as I enjoyed my 2 months summer holiday...it was incredibly boring. I'd be content with a 9 to 5 job, even if it was lousy pay...just because I'd feel it'd be so much more rewarding than being here. School isn't rewarding to me as much anymore...I think I've outgrown it, or I haven't grown into it yet; I never can tell.
But I know this is nowhere near as easy as it sounds...first of all my parents have paid for a whole year of accomodation, so if I dropped out they'd lose out financially...and if I was living at home they'd lose out even more, but I'd do my best to pay them back for their investment...and I also would prove that it's not just a whim thing and that I really do want to change my life path...my family are coming to visit me in just under 3 weeks time...if by then, I still feel miserable and don't want to carry on, I reserve the right to request to be taken home with my stuff that weekend.
Though I assume this is going to be discussed tomorrow.
-Ross
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Here's what I'd suggest you do...
ReplyDeleteYour parents have supplied you pretty much everything so far, and you still need to fufill that one year so that they dont feel like beating you.
Get a part time job while you are in school and see how that works out. Get more hours once the year is up, hopefully by then you'll have saved enough to start living semi-independantly (because I dont think in the first few monthes that will be easy).
I also suggest you use the work to find what you like and later get a degree in the field, other wise you'll be poor and depressed.